[Okay but we really should stop and pause for a moment of silence for two cups of coffee going cold on the coffee table. It hadn't ever been about the coffee in the first place, and that's a little unfortunate because it really is good coffee. But even good coffee doesn't hold a candle to the way Steve makes Bucky feel: like he's wanted, like he belongs, like some of the weight of a too-long life could be lifted off his shoulders, if only for an evening. It's as addictive a feeling as those kisses, as feeling Steve pressed against him.
As addictive as wanting more of Steve.
And he wants to give more to Steve, especially with the way he can't help but respond to the movement of that hand under his shirt. Combined with how Steve's mouth lingers against skin that's always been sensitive, it makes his breathing heavier, makes his hands press more against Steve's body. One sinks into soft hair, threading through the strands in a gentle bid to get Steve to linger. Usually Bucky's the instigator — and he enjoys that role — but letting Steve explore and play is doing very good things for him.]
You're making me want a hell of a lot more than just this, you know.
[More touching, more kissing, just more. And it's also his way of asking, in a roundabout sort of fashion, what Steve wants.]
[ Steve's forgotten about the coffee entirely, yet again, because as nice as a hot cup of coffee is under normal circumstances, these are anything but. These are extraordinary circumstances where Bucky is letting Steve touch him like the precious thing that Steve's always known he was.
Every touch or kiss is full of reverence and affection for one of the best things Steve's ever had in his life. Steve's never known anyone else like Bucky. He doubts there's anyone else like him in the entire world. ]
God, me too.
[ The words are whispered into Bucky's skin like a secret. ]
But you got me, Buck, for anything.
[ Because he wants everything there is to want with Bucky and he trusts him enough to write a blank check for it. ]
[Each touch, every kiss laid to too-warm skin makes Bucky shiver or sigh or clutch Steve a little closer. Steve's treating Bucky gently but not like he's fragile and that? That's something he appreciates so much.
Those words though? They all but light a fire along Bucky's nerves and he doesn't bother trying to silence his groan or the way he just wants to arch against his partner's body, wants to touch and be touched even more.] Steve...
[Hello, libido. You sure just crashed this party. Bucky licks his lips, eyes blinking closed for a moment of searching for strength. Steve's spilling secrets against his skin and it pulls Bucky's own secrets right out of his chest to gather hot and bright right behind his teeth, caught up there until the pressure of them is too much and it bursts from him in vocal form.]
Everything. I think I could want that— [And it's too much he knows, too much too soon but it's as honest and raw a confession as any Bucky has ever made.] At least half of it was teasing you about the stripping earlier, but I was dead serious when I said I wouldn't mind the end result.
[Just. Tossing that out there, seeing how it falls and where to go from there. He doesn't even realize he's holding his breath.]
[ Every little reaction he pulls out of Bucky eggs Steve on. It has him touching more and pressing closer against Bucky's body like his life depends on it.
Bucky's words leave Steve's skin feeling too hot, like his body is overwhelming itself from the inside, but he wants more of it and he chases that feeling, sliding against Bucky as he leans up to give Bucky another kiss. This one is far more heated and lingering than any that came before it and when he pulls back, it's to slide his fingers up Bucky's abs and ruck up Bucky's shirt, which he's ready to help Bucky take off if Bucky will let him. ]
There's nothing I don't want to share with you.
[ He means it, too. If there's something worth doing, Steve wants to do it with him. There's no one else in his life who compares. ]
[Oh. Oh. Oh, Steve's kisses are growing a little bolder, a little more heated and it's something that Bucky most definitely likes. He practically melts into it, a moan vibrating right into Steve's mouth and hands clutching at his skin to get even more.
And when Steve makes the first move not only to start with the undressing, but to start by undressing him? That just spikes his growing lust even higher.
It's not like Steve hasn't seen Bucky topless before. But that's the thing: it'd been before: before the war, before HYDRA, before everything that's happened to either one of them. And sure, Bucky's shape has changed in the muscle packed onto his frame, in the transition from American soldier to humanized weapon, but that's not all. It's like this that he can't hide anything of what was done to him, the extent of how much of him that HYDRA took with neither consent nor care. And if he knows anything about Steve, it's that there's probably going to be at least some guilt over it, even though there's honestly nothing he could have done.
But that's also part of being together, isn't it? Being so completely bared to each other, and in more than just the physical. It's why Bucky will sit up just enough to aid in the stripping off of his shirt, will raise his arms above his head for the garment to be pulled off. It's why when he is free of the fabric he'll cup Steve's cheeks in his hands, pulling him into a deep, wanting kiss. Steve had put it perfectly: there's nothing that he doesn't want to share; that goes for the bad as well as the good. And that includes letting Steve explore to his heart's content as soon as they break apart for air.]
You just let me know if you like what you see. [It's some of the old confidence leaking back into his voice, some of the old, flirty Sergeant Barnes in that lopsided smirk that crawls across his lips.]
[ Steve lets Bucky's shirt fall to the side, not too worried with where it lands, because Bucky's pulling him into another kiss and he's not sure how anything else could matter in this moment, save for a truly catastrophic emergency.
His hands go back to exploring Bucky skin and while he fines rough and jagged scars, they're as much a part of Bucky now as his arm is. Steve wants to know all of him, not just the parts that Bucky thinks he wants to see. Everything is important.
When he stops to take a break, he turns his head to kiss Bucky's palm. It's the metal one, but Steve doesn't notice. He just looks down at Bucky and lets their noses touch. ]
I think I might.
[ He can't think of a better sight he's seen than Bucky under him like this, inviting and beautiful as they both fight to catch their breaths.
Steve's never been great at defining what sexy is, but he's sure that whatever it is, he's looking at it. Bucky looks half-defiled already or like he really wants to be and Steve can't remember ever wanting another person this much. Sex has never been a particularly huge drive for him, but now? Oh, he wants. ]
[It's a good thing that there are no catastrophic emergencies happening, because Bucky knows that there's nothing at all that could pull him away from Steve right now. There's nothing that can possibly make him give up this closeness, the sweetness of Steve's kisses, edged as they are with heat and promises. And he can't hide the way he shivers when Steve starts to really explore his skin, when he finds those places that are the most sensitive. He just wants to cling to Steve, wants to invite him into even more and he shifts just a little, just enough to press as much as he can against his partner's hands.
That sweet little kiss to his palm makes his expression soften. It almost feels like breaking, but in the good way.]
Anything I can do to turn that might into a definite?
[Because having Steve so close, looking at him like this? It's doing a hell of a lot for him, and all of it's good.]
[ That has Steve chuckling softly, closing the distance to press a soft kiss to Bucky's lips. ]
I don't know. You might have to do some convincing.
[ His hands are still moving over Bucky's skin, warm palms dragging over skin to explore ribs and muscle. Even as his kisses are slow and soft, his hands are insistent and urging on Bucky's skin.
He slides his leg against Bucky's and even through their pants, it feels like his nerves are tingling. Every spot where they're touching feels a little more alive. ]
[Murmured into their kisses, a soft vibration of sound that passes from his lips to Steve's. Bucky presses into each touch and each lingering brush against his skin, needing to feel more of Steve feeling him. Any way that he can encourage the exploration of those hands, he will — he wants to. Especially when Steve's leg presses against his own, especially when Steve keeps pressing closer.
And sure, the evening had started with Bucky teasing Steve about stripping, but it's very quickly turning over into Bucky wanting to strip Steve, wanting to run his hands all over that body much as Steve is doing to him. And what's stopping him? Nothing. Nothing at all. So he lets his hands find the top button of Steve's shirt, slowly slipping it through its loop and trusting that Steve will stop him if it's too much.
Bucky doesn't think there's such a thing as too much though, not when it comes to Steve. There's only never enough.]
[ Steve has no plans of stopping Bucky. If Bucky actually tried to do something Steve didn't want, he'd have no problem saying so, but this isn't it and he very much doubts Bucky will ask him for anything he doesn't want.
The idea of Bucky undressing him is intoxicating and he hums quietly, hands exploring a little more excitedly. ]
Wherever you want to lead me, Buck, I'm there.
[ The words are hushed and breathless. He can't stop kissing Bucky and he doesn't want to. His body is crying for more, skin so warm that he's a little dizzy with need. ]
[He takes care to slip each button carefully free, only because it's too easy for either of them to forget their strength and rip cloth. And the reward? Totally worth it. Steve, bared to the waist and framed by the drape of the shirt and the appreciation is clear in Bucky's eyes. It's mingled with want, with a growing lust, and hands eagerly find skin to start exploring in earnest.
Steve's so warm, and the texture of skin is so smooth. Bucky knows it's because of the serum, because of what they've both been made, but even so he can't help the small thread of wonder at being welcomed to do this, to explore and touch and—
And then Steve lays out that little offer and it makes him groan into their next kiss, makes him pull Steve even closer because he just can't get enough of him.]
Including my bed?
[Not right this moment, because he's having entirely too much fun right as they are, cuddled up on the couch and starting to explore each other. But if things continue as they are? Bucky thinks he could definitely want Steve in his bed, against his sheets, exploring all the shades of what they could potentially be.]
[ Bucky's opening his shirt so slowly and he can't help the little feeling of anticipation that settles in his stomach. The way Bucky looks at him leaves him dizzy and breathless all over again. He feels like Bucky might devour him and he can't say he'd protest.
It's a bit of a struggle, but he manages to shrug out of his shirt, slip it from one arm and then the other without any great injury to either of them.
The way Bucky keeps pulling him closer has Steve losing what few inches had been left and by the time Bucky's got that question out, Steve finds himself half hard and can't help rocking into the side of Bucky's hip just once at the thought. The action leave him flushed and a little embarrassed, but he wants what Bucky is offering so damn bad. ]
Anywhere.
[ His voice is choked and airy as he presses another kiss to Bucky's lips and then down his jaw again. ]
[Removing Steve's shirt comes with a little bit of laughter, but it's only for the silliness of how they shift, of how they're careful that no one gets crushed. As if they can't handle it; as if they're fragile. It's silly, but it's also so them that Bucky can't help the happiness he knows is shining in his eyes.
And when Steve rocks against his hip, when he can feel the growing arousal in his friend? Bucky groans, eyes falling shut for a moment as his brain processes it. Processes the fact that they're half naked on his couch, processes that Steve's getting hard for him, because of him. Processes the fact that he's in much the same state.
Processes the fact that Steve wants this as much as he does.
His head tips back as Steve's kisses wander, and hands tighten against skin, a grip that's firm for sure but not enough to bruise, not for people like them. He's barely started to explore Steve's shape, his skin, and already he wants so much more of it. More of Steve. More of this. More of them, together.]
Bedroom, Steve. Now. Or I'm not going to want to move.
[It's a little breathless and the words definitely sound more silly than sexy but Bucky doesn't even care because that fits them so well too.]
[ Steve huffs a little laugh against Bucky's skin, all warm and intimate. It's really no different than the rest of these gestures between them and Steve can't help but marvel at how comfortable all of this intimacy feels, so he leans back up for one more kiss. He can't get enough of kissing Bucky right now and he can't see that changing any time soon.
Pulling away is hard and Steve knows that Bucky's right. They should move to Bucky's bed while they're still both able to think of it, because Steve doesn't think he's got much self control left in him where it comes to Bucky right now.
He gets himself up on his knees and then moves back until he can get his feet on the floor next to the couch. His leg taps the table and two forgotten mugs clink together, but Steve's attention is all on Bucky as he reaches a hand down to pull him up. He wants to do this right and that means in Bucky's bed were they can be comfortable and take their time together. ]
[For all that things are heating up between them — or starting to anyway — there's still laughter and affection and fond looks shared between them, and Bucky kind of adores it. That's probably a good part of why he can't get enough of this, really: because it's so easy, because it's so natural. Because it's Steve. Because there's nothing else he'd rather be doing, nowhere else he'd rather be than right here in the moment. Not even the weight of their past can interfere, not when he just wants to enjoy what's here and now and present.
Fortunately, Steve seems to be on a similar wavelength about their present, namely in that the kisses have to stop for at least a few moments, at least long enough to relocate themselves. There's a momentary thought spared for clothing — how Steve's shoes ended up by the entry, how his shirt is lost to the couch, how his pants will probably be decorating Bucky's bedroom floor — but he doesn't even have time to laugh at the idea before Steve is kissing him again, kissing him and pulling away and okay yes, they need to move and it needs to be now else they're definitely going to be christening Bucky's couch (and actually, that's not a bad a idea for next time).
Focus, Barnes. Focus.
The way Steve holds out his hand is sweet, endearing, and a little bit sexy too. Bucky lets himself be pulled up, bright laughter spilling out of him at the action, at the way it pulls him close to Steve, close enough to loop arms around him and lean in for another kiss — or two. Or three.
Move, Barnes. You have to move, else falling right back onto the couch is going to be a thing.
With a laugh he tugs Steve with him, walking backwards with the familiarity born of living in a space and knowing its layout. Which is good, because he doesn't want to stop looking at Steve, doesn't want to focus on anything except keeping their hands twined together and pulling him into the bedroom. It's as simply furnished as the rest of the apartment but the bed is comfortable and more accommodating of two large men than the couch could ever be.
And, Bucky really wants Steve in his bed.
He lets himself fall to a seated position on the edge of the bed, looking up at Steve with a grin. It's more silly than sexy in the moment but that doesn't much matter right now because it also fits this thing they're exploring.]
Join me?
[Out in the living room, two coffee cups sit nudged right up against each other, growing cold together and all but forgotten and that's kind of perfect too.]
[ Steve just keeps getting distracted every step of the way and he's pretty sure Bucky's having the same problem, if they can even call it that. It's just that every time they pause, he wants to kiss more, touch more, know more of Bucky. He can't get enough and there's nothing he doesn't want to know about Bucky right now, from the way his skin tastes to the sounds he might make the longer they do this.
Bucky keeps touching him and kissing him like he doesn't want to be anywhere else and it helps Steve let go of some of his worries about being too late or not enough. The smiles and laughs mix with the affection and want and this feels too good to be true, but Steve doesn't have it in him to really question it because whatever it is, it's perfect.
Then Bucky's leading him to the bedroom by the hand and he doesn't even question whether he should follow. He squeezes Bucky's hand, smiling like an idiot and chasing after the promise of all the kisses and touches he still wants.
He feels practically mesmerized by Bucky and he barely notices that they've moved before Bucky's sitting on his bed, looking up at Steve like nothing's changed, but the thing is that a lot has changed here. Now, neither of them has to hold back. Now, they can be honest and unguarded to a greater degree. He couldn't ask for anything better than that.
Bending over, he tips Bucky's chin up and kisses him again. And then once more. ]
Don't think I've ever gotten a better offer.
[ With his own matching grin, he sits on the bed next to Bucky, leg pressed against Bucky's like breathing room isn't a concept with knowing. He leans in for another kiss, because it's just not getting old. ]
[It’s probably some kind of miracle that they make it to the bedroom without a tripping incident, and maybe that speaks something to a well of natural grace that Steve simply doesn’t tap when he’s trying to dance. Or maybe it’s something simpler, something in the way they’ve always worked together, always moved together so well.
And when he’s sitting with Steve’s touch against his face, when he looks up into eyes that blue and that sincere? There’s no doubt at all that this is exactly what he wants and who he wants it with.]
If you do, let me know?
[It’s a little silly but he doesn’t care because Steve’s sitting with him, sitting shirtless with their legs pressed close and he can feel the heat of the other man like this, the sheer warmth of his skin and Bucky thinks he wants to burrow right into it, pull Steve against him and explore all the ways they could fit. But that can wait for at least a moment; right now he’s thoroughly occupied with kissing Steve, with curving a hand to kiss cheek to hold him close while their lips and tongues play. And it is playing; it’s playful and inviting and yes it’s getting a little hotter with each kiss they trade but underneath everything is still that warm current of affection for the man who knows him better than Bucky might know himself.
Eventually he’ll break away enough to tug Steve back with him, to recline together because they’re on his bed and isn’t that half the point? But that can wait until after another kiss. Or two. Or five.]
[ Sitting like this, Steve can't touch as much as he had been, but he can let his hand settle on Bucky's knee and that feels pretty intimate to him. Maybe that's showing how inexperienced Steve really is, because it's through his pants, but there's something that feels so familiar and a little possessive about it and he likes the idea that Bucky is his, even if it's just for a little while and even if it's just because Bucky's letting him. He wouldn't want it any other way, because he feels like he's Bucky's, too. They belong to each other in a lot of ways. This is just a new one.
He presses closer to Bucky's side to give into more kisses, turning a little to angle into him. ]
Can't think of how anyone could top it.
[ Steve's hand moves from Bucky's knee then to push gently at his shoulder. He wants to press against Bucky again, like they'd been doing on the couch.
He wants that and more, because there's no end to what he wants from Bucky and even after they're done, he knows he'll want to do everything again and again. That much had been clear just from their first kiss, because Bucky is perfect in every way to Steve. Even the cracks and welts are important parts of who he is and Steve can't help wanting to know every inch of him. ]
Good. I don't want to have to compete against someone for this.
[Steve's pushing at his shoulder and Bucky lets the pressure push him back, push him onto his back so that he can pull Steve on top of him. The idea of rolling around in his bed together most certainly has appeal, and for everything from the silly to the sexy. Really all he wants is more contact with Steve, more of these soft touches and brushes that are making him smile.
He wants those touches to become a lot more substantial.
And why not start with what he's got right here? Steve, bared to the waist and in his bed; it's an excellent opportunity to run his hands down that sculpted chest, to explore a shape he doesn't truly know all that well, at least not this up close. But he wants to, wants so much to explore how Steve fits against him. And maybe he should take things more slowly but with all the time they've lost already, slow isn't even something he wants to consider, despite his earlier reassurance of having time.
He just can't help wanting more of this. It's almost like an addiction, but Bucky thinks that he wouldn't mind being addicted to Steve.
He hauls Steve in for another round of kissing, a wanting little noise slipping from his mouth. Interest is definitely blooming below the belt, and he's very much inclined to explore it with Steve.]
[ Steve follows after Bucky easily enough, settling his weight against Bucky again in an attempt to get as close as they'd been on the couch.
The warmth of Bucky's skin pulls his attention and he barely notices how awkward it feels to have his legs hanging off the edge a little. His hand slides over Bucky's shoulder to rub circles against his neck and then he's cupping Bucky's jaw like he's something precious and delicate. He knows they're both incredibly strong, but that doesn't mean Bucky doesn't deserve the soft touches and the care with which Steve shows his affection. If anyone deserves to be shown this kind of affection, it's Bucky.
His breath hitches as Bucky's hands moves over his skin with purpose. He thinks he could lie here and let Bucky touch him like that for hours, even as he feels his body reacting further. His skin is hot, cheeks flushed with pleasure and desire. ]
I don't think you have to worry about that.
[ His words are breathless, whispered against Bucky's lips as they kiss again, and Steve is having a hard time taking this as slow as he'd like when he hears the little sound he pulls out of Bucky. He can't help following it with his own soft whine and he shifts to hook his knee over Bucky's. ]
[Steve follows hm down and Bucky can’t help the arching sort of motion, the one that presses his body more against his friend’s. It’s almost like a magnet, the way he’s pulled toward Steve, the way he just wants to be pressed together. And maybe it’s a little awkward and silly with hanging legs and dangling feet but it’s also kind of perfect.
Besides, it’s not like they can’t wiggle around a little, right?
But then Steve’s hand is moving over his skin, a gentle touch that makes him moan more than anything thus far. It’s so tender, so sweet; for someone who can endure, has endured what Bucky has, it’s this sort of gentility that makes him break. The fact that it comes from Steve, comes with Steve’s eyes full of such affection that it seems to spill right out of him, makes Bucky want to pull him closer. He thinks he could stay wrapped up in this man for a long, long time.]
Just keep saying my name like that.
[A little breathless, on the heels of that delicious little whine? He can’t help the way he wants it so much, wants everything that Steve is willing to give. He shivers when Steve’s leg slides against his own; even through their pants it’s hot and he can’t help the immediate wonder at what it would feel like with bare skin against his own.
Hands slip lower on Steve’s torso, teasing against his abs, tracing the curve of his waist. It’s certainly not anything that could be considered too risqué, not yet at least, but even this simple exploration is making those feelings of desire spark hotter and hotter.]
[ Bucky's fingers trace his skin and Steve can feel his muscles twitching under the touch. No one's ever really touched him like this and Steve's already past the point of how far he's been with anyone ever, so he's entirely out of his depth. It would be terrifying, but he trusts Bucky to tell him if he's doing something wrong and even if he'd probably laugh a little, he'd never do it to humiliate Steve. ]
Yeah. Yeah, let me see you, too, Buck.
[ That same gentle hand moves down Bucky's chest, over his ribs and abs with the sort of reverence one might have for a delicate sculpture. Bucky's always been beautiful to him, inside and out. Steve's been drawn to it for a long time, even back when he hadn't really been sure what Bucky was doing being friends at all with a little guy like him. Of course, that's what had always made Bucky shine a little brighter. He'd always been so good to Steve in ways no one else really had been.
His fingers settle on Bucky's waistband, pausing on the button of his jeans so he can pull back enough to make eye contact and make sure he has permission to do this. Bucky's been through too much for Steve to think it's okay to take anything that isn't explicitly offered. ]
[There’s no hesitatance in Bucky’s touch, for as gentle as he’s keeping it. Flesh and metal trace Steve’s body, lingering in any place that Steve seems to like. And he’s encouraged by how Steve touches him in return, by the care he can read in the action. By how special it makes him feel. Steve isn’t shying away from how his body’s been altered, the fusion of metal into flesh. Bucky hadn’t realized how much that acceptance would mean to him.
His hands only leave Steve’s body when he feels those fingers at his waistband. With a smile he meets Steve’s gaze, puts his hands over Steve’s to guide him to pop open the button on his jeans.]
I want that too. And I want you to help me.
[Acceptance, eagerness, desire. Bucky knows he’s probably a little more experienced than Steve, for all that it’s been quite some time. But above all else he wants his partner to be comfortable with this, to want this as much as Bucky himself does. So he’ll let Steve set the pace for pulling off jeans, for if he wants the simple boxer briefs gone as well. And Bucky’s watching him the entire time; as layers come off there’s no hiding that he’s half hard already and he wants to make sure that above anything else, Steve is comfortable with this. With him.]
[ The metal arm and the scars on Bucky's body are reminders of what he's been through for Steve. He doesn't take that lightly, but it doesn't change who Bucky is. Everything Bucky's been through is a part of him now, but Steve still sees his best friend shining through all of that. It's in the gentleness he shows with that metal hand and the quiet encouragements he throws at Steve, the look in his eyes and the way he'd pulled Steve close to dance. Nothing can change those things about Bucky that make him who he is and that undeniable fact makes Steve's heart swell.
Bucky's hand guiding his probably shouldn't be as hot as it is, but it hits him like a stack of bricks that Bucky is here showing Steve how to undress him and Steve can't help pressing another kiss to Bucky's lips. It's all eager and a little too hard as he lowers Bucky's zipper.
He pulls back just enough to watch as he pushes at Bucky's waistband and he sees that Bucky's getting hard because of him. Subconsciously, he licks his lips as he reluctantly pulls back so that he can pull Bucky's pants down. ]
You're beautiful.
[ He doesn't mean to say it out loud, but he doesn't regret the words once they're out and he looks up to meet Bucky's eyes again. He means it in every way. ]
[The eagerness that Steve shows is kind of hot, actually. Much hotter than it is funny, that’s for sure, even though an amused noise does rumble through their kiss at the way Steve yanks down his zipper. But it’s somethng he wants, something he wants to share with Steve. And above all else, sex is supposed to be fun. Mixing a little laughter in with it is certainly not a problem.
Even so, he can’t help being a little nervous as Steve pulls away to pull his pants off. Isn’t that silly?
He does wriggle his hips and move his legs as needed to help though, until denim can be discarded to the floor and he’s laying there under Steve’s gaze. It’s a little more nerve wracking than he’d anticipated, the look in those clear blue eyes. And those two words? They make a faint blush rise in Bucky’s cheeks — which is saying a lot, because Bucky’s pretty sure that he’d never really known how to blush.
He can’t help a little laugh then, when he meets Steve’s gaze.]
Flatterer.
[It’s warm though, colored by the affection he feels for this man. And it’s tinted with want as well, because he most certainly can’t lay here naked and deny that he wants, that he’s attracted to Steve. That familiar smirk settles onto his lips, the one that says a tease is imminent because yes, even laid out like this Bucky can find it in himself to tease his best friend.]
I promise, it’s even better up close. C’mere. [He’s propping himself up on one elbow, reaching out for Steve with the other hand. They haven’t kissed in about ninety seconds. That’s ninety seconds too long!]
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As addictive as wanting more of Steve.
And he wants to give more to Steve, especially with the way he can't help but respond to the movement of that hand under his shirt. Combined with how Steve's mouth lingers against skin that's always been sensitive, it makes his breathing heavier, makes his hands press more against Steve's body. One sinks into soft hair, threading through the strands in a gentle bid to get Steve to linger. Usually Bucky's the instigator — and he enjoys that role — but letting Steve explore and play is doing very good things for him.]
You're making me want a hell of a lot more than just this, you know.
[More touching, more kissing, just more. And it's also his way of asking, in a roundabout sort of fashion, what Steve wants.]
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Every touch or kiss is full of reverence and affection for one of the best things Steve's ever had in his life. Steve's never known anyone else like Bucky. He doubts there's anyone else like him in the entire world. ]
God, me too.
[ The words are whispered into Bucky's skin like a secret. ]
But you got me, Buck, for anything.
[ Because he wants everything there is to want with Bucky and he trusts him enough to write a blank check for it. ]
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Those words though? They all but light a fire along Bucky's nerves and he doesn't bother trying to silence his groan or the way he just wants to arch against his partner's body, wants to touch and be touched even more.] Steve...
[Hello, libido. You sure just crashed this party. Bucky licks his lips, eyes blinking closed for a moment of searching for strength. Steve's spilling secrets against his skin and it pulls Bucky's own secrets right out of his chest to gather hot and bright right behind his teeth, caught up there until the pressure of them is too much and it bursts from him in vocal form.]
Everything. I think I could want that— [And it's too much he knows, too much too soon but it's as honest and raw a confession as any Bucky has ever made.] At least half of it was teasing you about the stripping earlier, but I was dead serious when I said I wouldn't mind the end result.
[Just. Tossing that out there, seeing how it falls and where to go from there. He doesn't even realize he's holding his breath.]
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Bucky's words leave Steve's skin feeling too hot, like his body is overwhelming itself from the inside, but he wants more of it and he chases that feeling, sliding against Bucky as he leans up to give Bucky another kiss. This one is far more heated and lingering than any that came before it and when he pulls back, it's to slide his fingers up Bucky's abs and ruck up Bucky's shirt, which he's ready to help Bucky take off if Bucky will let him. ]
There's nothing I don't want to share with you.
[ He means it, too. If there's something worth doing, Steve wants to do it with him. There's no one else in his life who compares. ]
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And when Steve makes the first move not only to start with the undressing, but to start by undressing him? That just spikes his growing lust even higher.
It's not like Steve hasn't seen Bucky topless before. But that's the thing: it'd been before: before the war, before HYDRA, before everything that's happened to either one of them. And sure, Bucky's shape has changed in the muscle packed onto his frame, in the transition from American soldier to humanized weapon, but that's not all. It's like this that he can't hide anything of what was done to him, the extent of how much of him that HYDRA took with neither consent nor care. And if he knows anything about Steve, it's that there's probably going to be at least some guilt over it, even though there's honestly nothing he could have done.
But that's also part of being together, isn't it? Being so completely bared to each other, and in more than just the physical. It's why Bucky will sit up just enough to aid in the stripping off of his shirt, will raise his arms above his head for the garment to be pulled off. It's why when he is free of the fabric he'll cup Steve's cheeks in his hands, pulling him into a deep, wanting kiss. Steve had put it perfectly: there's nothing that he doesn't want to share; that goes for the bad as well as the good. And that includes letting Steve explore to his heart's content as soon as they break apart for air.]
You just let me know if you like what you see. [It's some of the old confidence leaking back into his voice, some of the old, flirty Sergeant Barnes in that lopsided smirk that crawls across his lips.]
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His hands go back to exploring Bucky skin and while he fines rough and jagged scars, they're as much a part of Bucky now as his arm is. Steve wants to know all of him, not just the parts that Bucky thinks he wants to see. Everything is important.
When he stops to take a break, he turns his head to kiss Bucky's palm. It's the metal one, but Steve doesn't notice. He just looks down at Bucky and lets their noses touch. ]
I think I might.
[ He can't think of a better sight he's seen than Bucky under him like this, inviting and beautiful as they both fight to catch their breaths.
Steve's never been great at defining what sexy is, but he's sure that whatever it is, he's looking at it. Bucky looks half-defiled already or like he really wants to be and Steve can't remember ever wanting another person this much. Sex has never been a particularly huge drive for him, but now? Oh, he wants. ]
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That sweet little kiss to his palm makes his expression soften. It almost feels like breaking, but in the good way.]
Anything I can do to turn that might into a definite?
[Because having Steve so close, looking at him like this? It's doing a hell of a lot for him, and all of it's good.]
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I don't know. You might have to do some convincing.
[ His hands are still moving over Bucky's skin, warm palms dragging over skin to explore ribs and muscle. Even as his kisses are slow and soft, his hands are insistent and urging on Bucky's skin.
He slides his leg against Bucky's and even through their pants, it feels like his nerves are tingling. Every spot where they're touching feels a little more alive. ]
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[Murmured into their kisses, a soft vibration of sound that passes from his lips to Steve's. Bucky presses into each touch and each lingering brush against his skin, needing to feel more of Steve feeling him. Any way that he can encourage the exploration of those hands, he will — he wants to. Especially when Steve's leg presses against his own, especially when Steve keeps pressing closer.
And sure, the evening had started with Bucky teasing Steve about stripping, but it's very quickly turning over into Bucky wanting to strip Steve, wanting to run his hands all over that body much as Steve is doing to him. And what's stopping him? Nothing. Nothing at all. So he lets his hands find the top button of Steve's shirt, slowly slipping it through its loop and trusting that Steve will stop him if it's too much.
Bucky doesn't think there's such a thing as too much though, not when it comes to Steve. There's only never enough.]
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The idea of Bucky undressing him is intoxicating and he hums quietly, hands exploring a little more excitedly. ]
Wherever you want to lead me, Buck, I'm there.
[ The words are hushed and breathless. He can't stop kissing Bucky and he doesn't want to. His body is crying for more, skin so warm that he's a little dizzy with need. ]
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Steve's so warm, and the texture of skin is so smooth. Bucky knows it's because of the serum, because of what they've both been made, but even so he can't help the small thread of wonder at being welcomed to do this, to explore and touch and—
And then Steve lays out that little offer and it makes him groan into their next kiss, makes him pull Steve even closer because he just can't get enough of him.]
Including my bed?
[Not right this moment, because he's having entirely too much fun right as they are, cuddled up on the couch and starting to explore each other. But if things continue as they are? Bucky thinks he could definitely want Steve in his bed, against his sheets, exploring all the shades of what they could potentially be.]
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It's a bit of a struggle, but he manages to shrug out of his shirt, slip it from one arm and then the other without any great injury to either of them.
The way Bucky keeps pulling him closer has Steve losing what few inches had been left and by the time Bucky's got that question out, Steve finds himself half hard and can't help rocking into the side of Bucky's hip just once at the thought. The action leave him flushed and a little embarrassed, but he wants what Bucky is offering so damn bad. ]
Anywhere.
[ His voice is choked and airy as he presses another kiss to Bucky's lips and then down his jaw again. ]
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And when Steve rocks against his hip, when he can feel the growing arousal in his friend? Bucky groans, eyes falling shut for a moment as his brain processes it. Processes the fact that they're half naked on his couch, processes that Steve's getting hard for him, because of him. Processes the fact that he's in much the same state.
Processes the fact that Steve wants this as much as he does.
His head tips back as Steve's kisses wander, and hands tighten against skin, a grip that's firm for sure but not enough to bruise, not for people like them. He's barely started to explore Steve's shape, his skin, and already he wants so much more of it. More of Steve. More of this. More of them, together.]
Bedroom, Steve. Now. Or I'm not going to want to move.
[It's a little breathless and the words definitely sound more silly than sexy but Bucky doesn't even care because that fits them so well too.]
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Pulling away is hard and Steve knows that Bucky's right. They should move to Bucky's bed while they're still both able to think of it, because Steve doesn't think he's got much self control left in him where it comes to Bucky right now.
He gets himself up on his knees and then moves back until he can get his feet on the floor next to the couch. His leg taps the table and two forgotten mugs clink together, but Steve's attention is all on Bucky as he reaches a hand down to pull him up. He wants to do this right and that means in Bucky's bed were they can be comfortable and take their time together. ]
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Fortunately, Steve seems to be on a similar wavelength about their present, namely in that the kisses have to stop for at least a few moments, at least long enough to relocate themselves. There's a momentary thought spared for clothing — how Steve's shoes ended up by the entry, how his shirt is lost to the couch, how his pants will probably be decorating Bucky's bedroom floor — but he doesn't even have time to laugh at the idea before Steve is kissing him again, kissing him and pulling away and okay yes, they need to move and it needs to be now else they're definitely going to be christening Bucky's couch (and actually, that's not a bad a idea for next time).
Focus, Barnes. Focus.
The way Steve holds out his hand is sweet, endearing, and a little bit sexy too. Bucky lets himself be pulled up, bright laughter spilling out of him at the action, at the way it pulls him close to Steve, close enough to loop arms around him and lean in for another kiss — or two. Or three.
Move, Barnes. You have to move, else falling right back onto the couch is going to be a thing.
With a laugh he tugs Steve with him, walking backwards with the familiarity born of living in a space and knowing its layout. Which is good, because he doesn't want to stop looking at Steve, doesn't want to focus on anything except keeping their hands twined together and pulling him into the bedroom. It's as simply furnished as the rest of the apartment but the bed is comfortable and more accommodating of two large men than the couch could ever be.
And, Bucky really wants Steve in his bed.
He lets himself fall to a seated position on the edge of the bed, looking up at Steve with a grin. It's more silly than sexy in the moment but that doesn't much matter right now because it also fits this thing they're exploring.]
Join me?
[Out in the living room, two coffee cups sit nudged right up against each other, growing cold together and all but forgotten and that's kind of perfect too.]
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Bucky keeps touching him and kissing him like he doesn't want to be anywhere else and it helps Steve let go of some of his worries about being too late or not enough. The smiles and laughs mix with the affection and want and this feels too good to be true, but Steve doesn't have it in him to really question it because whatever it is, it's perfect.
Then Bucky's leading him to the bedroom by the hand and he doesn't even question whether he should follow. He squeezes Bucky's hand, smiling like an idiot and chasing after the promise of all the kisses and touches he still wants.
He feels practically mesmerized by Bucky and he barely notices that they've moved before Bucky's sitting on his bed, looking up at Steve like nothing's changed, but the thing is that a lot has changed here. Now, neither of them has to hold back. Now, they can be honest and unguarded to a greater degree. He couldn't ask for anything better than that.
Bending over, he tips Bucky's chin up and kisses him again. And then once more. ]
Don't think I've ever gotten a better offer.
[ With his own matching grin, he sits on the bed next to Bucky, leg pressed against Bucky's like breathing room isn't a concept with knowing. He leans in for another kiss, because it's just not getting old. ]
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And when he’s sitting with Steve’s touch against his face, when he looks up into eyes that blue and that sincere? There’s no doubt at all that this is exactly what he wants and who he wants it with.]
If you do, let me know?
[It’s a little silly but he doesn’t care because Steve’s sitting with him, sitting shirtless with their legs pressed close and he can feel the heat of the other man like this, the sheer warmth of his skin and Bucky thinks he wants to burrow right into it, pull Steve against him and explore all the ways they could fit. But that can wait for at least a moment; right now he’s thoroughly occupied with kissing Steve, with curving a hand to kiss cheek to hold him close while their lips and tongues play. And it is playing; it’s playful and inviting and yes it’s getting a little hotter with each kiss they trade but underneath everything is still that warm current of affection for the man who knows him better than Bucky might know himself.
Eventually he’ll break away enough to tug Steve back with him, to recline together because they’re on his bed and isn’t that half the point? But that can wait until after another kiss. Or two. Or five.]
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He presses closer to Bucky's side to give into more kisses, turning a little to angle into him. ]
Can't think of how anyone could top it.
[ Steve's hand moves from Bucky's knee then to push gently at his shoulder. He wants to press against Bucky again, like they'd been doing on the couch.
He wants that and more, because there's no end to what he wants from Bucky and even after they're done, he knows he'll want to do everything again and again. That much had been clear just from their first kiss, because Bucky is perfect in every way to Steve. Even the cracks and welts are important parts of who he is and Steve can't help wanting to know every inch of him. ]
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[Steve's pushing at his shoulder and Bucky lets the pressure push him back, push him onto his back so that he can pull Steve on top of him. The idea of rolling around in his bed together most certainly has appeal, and for everything from the silly to the sexy. Really all he wants is more contact with Steve, more of these soft touches and brushes that are making him smile.
He wants those touches to become a lot more substantial.
And why not start with what he's got right here? Steve, bared to the waist and in his bed; it's an excellent opportunity to run his hands down that sculpted chest, to explore a shape he doesn't truly know all that well, at least not this up close. But he wants to, wants so much to explore how Steve fits against him. And maybe he should take things more slowly but with all the time they've lost already, slow isn't even something he wants to consider, despite his earlier reassurance of having time.
He just can't help wanting more of this. It's almost like an addiction, but Bucky thinks that he wouldn't mind being addicted to Steve.
He hauls Steve in for another round of kissing, a wanting little noise slipping from his mouth. Interest is definitely blooming below the belt, and he's very much inclined to explore it with Steve.]
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The warmth of Bucky's skin pulls his attention and he barely notices how awkward it feels to have his legs hanging off the edge a little. His hand slides over Bucky's shoulder to rub circles against his neck and then he's cupping Bucky's jaw like he's something precious and delicate. He knows they're both incredibly strong, but that doesn't mean Bucky doesn't deserve the soft touches and the care with which Steve shows his affection. If anyone deserves to be shown this kind of affection, it's Bucky.
His breath hitches as Bucky's hands moves over his skin with purpose. He thinks he could lie here and let Bucky touch him like that for hours, even as he feels his body reacting further. His skin is hot, cheeks flushed with pleasure and desire. ]
I don't think you have to worry about that.
[ His words are breathless, whispered against Bucky's lips as they kiss again, and Steve is having a hard time taking this as slow as he'd like when he hears the little sound he pulls out of Bucky. He can't help following it with his own soft whine and he shifts to hook his knee over Bucky's. ]
God, Bucky.
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Besides, it’s not like they can’t wiggle around a little, right?
But then Steve’s hand is moving over his skin, a gentle touch that makes him moan more than anything thus far. It’s so tender, so sweet; for someone who can endure, has endured what Bucky has, it’s this sort of gentility that makes him break. The fact that it comes from Steve, comes with Steve’s eyes full of such affection that it seems to spill right out of him, makes Bucky want to pull him closer. He thinks he could stay wrapped up in this man for a long, long time.]
Just keep saying my name like that.
[A little breathless, on the heels of that delicious little whine? He can’t help the way he wants it so much, wants everything that Steve is willing to give. He shivers when Steve’s leg slides against his own; even through their pants it’s hot and he can’t help the immediate wonder at what it would feel like with bare skin against his own.
Hands slip lower on Steve’s torso, teasing against his abs, tracing the curve of his waist. It’s certainly not anything that could be considered too risqué, not yet at least, but even this simple exploration is making those feelings of desire spark hotter and hotter.]
I want— Can I see more of you? All of you?
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Yeah. Yeah, let me see you, too, Buck.
[ That same gentle hand moves down Bucky's chest, over his ribs and abs with the sort of reverence one might have for a delicate sculpture. Bucky's always been beautiful to him, inside and out. Steve's been drawn to it for a long time, even back when he hadn't really been sure what Bucky was doing being friends at all with a little guy like him. Of course, that's what had always made Bucky shine a little brighter. He'd always been so good to Steve in ways no one else really had been.
His fingers settle on Bucky's waistband, pausing on the button of his jeans so he can pull back enough to make eye contact and make sure he has permission to do this. Bucky's been through too much for Steve to think it's okay to take anything that isn't explicitly offered. ]
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His hands only leave Steve’s body when he feels those fingers at his waistband. With a smile he meets Steve’s gaze, puts his hands over Steve’s to guide him to pop open the button on his jeans.]
I want that too. And I want you to help me.
[Acceptance, eagerness, desire. Bucky knows he’s probably a little more experienced than Steve, for all that it’s been quite some time. But above all else he wants his partner to be comfortable with this, to want this as much as Bucky himself does. So he’ll let Steve set the pace for pulling off jeans, for if he wants the simple boxer briefs gone as well. And Bucky’s watching him the entire time; as layers come off there’s no hiding that he’s half hard already and he wants to make sure that above anything else, Steve is comfortable with this. With him.]
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Bucky's hand guiding his probably shouldn't be as hot as it is, but it hits him like a stack of bricks that Bucky is here showing Steve how to undress him and Steve can't help pressing another kiss to Bucky's lips. It's all eager and a little too hard as he lowers Bucky's zipper.
He pulls back just enough to watch as he pushes at Bucky's waistband and he sees that Bucky's getting hard because of him. Subconsciously, he licks his lips as he reluctantly pulls back so that he can pull Bucky's pants down. ]
You're beautiful.
[ He doesn't mean to say it out loud, but he doesn't regret the words once they're out and he looks up to meet Bucky's eyes again. He means it in every way. ]
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Even so, he can’t help being a little nervous as Steve pulls away to pull his pants off. Isn’t that silly?
He does wriggle his hips and move his legs as needed to help though, until denim can be discarded to the floor and he’s laying there under Steve’s gaze. It’s a little more nerve wracking than he’d anticipated, the look in those clear blue eyes. And those two words? They make a faint blush rise in Bucky’s cheeks — which is saying a lot, because Bucky’s pretty sure that he’d never really known how to blush.
He can’t help a little laugh then, when he meets Steve’s gaze.]
Flatterer.
[It’s warm though, colored by the affection he feels for this man. And it’s tinted with want as well, because he most certainly can’t lay here naked and deny that he wants, that he’s attracted to Steve. That familiar smirk settles onto his lips, the one that says a tease is imminent because yes, even laid out like this Bucky can find it in himself to tease his best friend.]
I promise, it’s even better up close. C’mere. [He’s propping himself up on one elbow, reaching out for Steve with the other hand. They haven’t kissed in about ninety seconds. That’s ninety seconds too long!]
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