keepcruising | OPEN POST FOR STEVE!

You have no idea.

[ And then he kisses Bucky again, because he can and he wants to and Bucky is right here under him. He's wanted this for a long time and any changes they've been through haven't impacted that in the least. ]

Stay, Buck. Please just stay.

[God, he couldn't ruin this even if he tried. Of course he returns the kiss, arching his back up into Steve.]

I'll stay. There's no reason to pretend I don't want this.

God, Steve, 've wanted this for so long.

Me, too.

[ He brushes fingers over Bucky's cheek and pushes his hair back. Bucky might be all pushy and eager, but Steve wants to take his time. For him, it's always been about finding someone worth the wait. Bucky's always been worth everything to Steve. ]

For so long, all I wanted to do was find you so I could keep you safe the way you always used to keep me safe.

[Of course Steve would want to go slow, all careful and noble. Bucky makes a face, but it melts into another smile after a moment.]

Y'know, that sounds nice. I've never had anything like that before. And having you take care of me, pal, I 'unno, it sounds like my idea of heaven.

[Therapy's helped. It made him not feel ashamed about admitting he likes the support.]

[ Steve feels something swell in his chest. He's so thankful that Bucky's here now, that he's going to stay and let Steve help him, in whatever capacity.

He takes a moment to just look at Bucky, memorize his face the way it is now. It's so much more relaxed than when he'd first found Bucky again, so much closer to what Bucky had been like before and he knows they can't go back, but he wants so much to see Bucky happy. ]

There's nothing I wouldn't give you.

[ And he's perfectly sincere as he leans down to kiss Bucky again. ]

[Bucky laughs, but it's a warm sound, something from the bygone era of the two of them talking about dames and dating. Never each other, the times hadn't been right for that; they could have been killed. But now? Now there's no reason to want anything else.

The dames were always good, but nothing like Steve.]

I know.

[He returns that kiss eagerly, both hands clasped to Steve's back.]

[ Even as he's trying to keep things slow, Steve can't help loving the way it feels to have Bucky clinging to him like that. It feels right, the two of them here like this. It's like they've always belonged together in some way and he loves the feeling of being able to really be close to Bucky.

As he pulls back to breath, he kisses Bucky's cheek and his jaw. It's sweet and maybe a little teasing. ]

And there's nothing I don't want to give you, either, Buck. You deserve everything.

[Maybe he can get used to this taking it slow thing.

At least it means they're both doing this on their own terms.]

You have no idea how long I've wanted this.

[...Actually, he probably does.

After a moment, he reaches up with his right hand to press it against Steve's cheek.]

Lookit you, you could get any man or woman you wanted, and 'm the one you're interested in.

[ Steve doesn't know how long Bucky's wanted it, but he knows how long he has. He's always admired Bucky so much, loved him in a way he doesn't think he could love anyone else. Losing him had destroyed a piece of Steve and it feels like that's still being repaired now that Bucky's here. ]

I can't imagine wanting anyone else.

[ Steve would like to think he's shown where he priorities lie when it comes to Bucky. There's no one and nothing that will make Steve turn his back. ]

The dames were nice.

[That confession is easy enough, because he's still stroking at the side of Steve's face, and all his attention is on the other man.]

But you've always been there. I love you, punk. I probably always have, it's just taken me too long to figure out what it all meant.

It was worth the wait.

[ Not that it's been an easy time for either of them, but Steve would weather just about anything to keep Bucky by his side, safe and alive.

He turns his head to kiss Bucky's palm. ]

I'm going to spend as much time as I have to proving that to you.

It was absolutely worth the wait.

[He lets Steve, looking relaxed and trusting.]

Wouldn't be the first time we've spent long nights keeping each other warm, hmm?

Can't help thinking this would be a little different.

[ He smiles down at Bucky and kisses him again, this time with a little more promise to it. Taking this slow doesn't mean he doesn't want Bucky. The idea of pressing close in Steve's bed is amazing. He wants to learn ever curve and dip of Bucky's body. ]

Since I'm bigger now.

[Bucky grins.]

Yeah. It sounds like it'd be pretty fun.

Well, minus the fact that it's going to be harder for both of us to fit on the bed.

I'm sure we'll manage somehow. Bed's bigger now, anyway.

[ He slides a hand down Bucky's chest over his shirt. ]

Want me to prove it to you?

[His smile stretches easily to both sides of his face.]

Yeah. Prove it to me.

I'm going to have to get you out of all of this clothing first.

[ Steve's expression matches Bucky's as he pushes Bucky's shirt up over his stomach and chest, fingers teasing the skin beneath as he goes. He's wanted this for so long and he barely knows what he's doing here, but he's got this false sense of confidence in knowing Bucky well enough that he can figure out the rest. ]

Good.

[He knows Steve, knows it's likely possible he's still never done anything like this before.]

I'll give you all the encouragement you need, Stevie.

[ Steve hums in agreement and works to pull Bucky's shirt over his head. ]

I just need you here with me. Just need to know you want this, too.

[ What else could he need? Bucky's here and Steve just wants to make him happy and touch him the way he deserves to be touched. ]

Of course I want it.

[He reaches up, brushing his thumb against Steve's bottom lip.]

Should've said so earlier.

[ Steve chases Bucky's hand with his lips so he can kiss Bucky's palm. He can't help the cheesy affection. There will probably be more of it, because he's so damn happy to finally be here with Bucky in his bed.

His hands skim over Bucky's chest, exploring scars and metal along with everything else. ]

You're beautiful, Buck. You know that?

[Bucky smiles at the kiss. Of course he's a fan of this cheesy affection, because it's Steve.

His expression flickers a little at the touch on his scars. They're ugly, he doesn't like being reminded of them, but of course Steve would touch them like he's not bothered.]

I believe it, coming from you.

You'd better.

[ The scars aren't ugly to Steve. They're a part of Bucky to learn, because there's no part of him that isn't worth knowing. ]

Because I wouldn't lie to you.

[ He skims his hand down Bucky's metal arm, not entirely sure how sensitive it is, but he knows it's not numb. Bucky registers the touch somehow. ]

[Bucky's smile is slight, but present. He watches Steve curiously, not put off by the attention his scars, his arm is getting.

By the little twitches from the plates on his arm, he can definitely feel the touch, and he laughs, just slightly.]

All this time, and I didn't think I was ticklish.

[Maybe it's just the way Steve is touching him.]

[ Steve huffs out a little amused laugh, clearly pleased with himself. He'd seen Bucky register the touch, but this is different. This isn't Bucky registering pain or touching something for information. This is Steve making him smile.

He drags his fingers down over Bucky's metal palm to lace their fingers together. ]

I wonder what else we can figure out.

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semistableman - 2018-05-26 02:37 (UTC) - Expand