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Steve had never seen himself going to prison. For some reason he'd thought that doing the right thing had been some kind of shield he could throw around to protect himself. It's not even that he'd wanted to avoid consequence so much as that he'd never thought through exactly how far the right thing and the law might stray from each other.
None of that really matters, anyway, because the trial is over and Steve is looking at a minimum of two years in minimum security prison. This is his life for the next two years. It puts college on hold and it may stick with him for the rest of his life and he still doesn't think he did a damn thing wrong, but that doesn't make the prospect of being in prison any less daunting. His sentence would have been worse if the judge hadn't had a soft spot for veterans, too. Steve had hated letting his lawyer play that card, but he hadn't had much of a choice.
He's got muscles, at least. As he's going through the intake process, he notices most of the men are smaller than him and a few of them eye him warily. He says nothing to anyone unless he's supposed to, leaving the chatter to a skinny man with a face tattoo and whoever he can manage to pull answers from.
There's a pile of clothes and sheets and toiletries in his arms and as they're led in, the group is split up among the blocks. Steve is in C block, he's told, and his cell mate will be a man named Barnes. It all means nothing to Steve, but he remembers the details, anyway. Everything looks the same in here and he wonders what kind of criminal he'll be sharing a cell with. Enough of the men in here come from unwinnable situations. It's not something Steve would look down his nose at. His neighborhood wasn't exactly a safe suburban haven, either, and he could have easily fallen in with a bad crowd or made the wrong decision and wound up in their shoes. He doesn't let himself forget that. Most of them are minor drug offenders or small time thieves, maybe a few bigger offenders moved here for years of good behavior.
When he finally gets to his cell, the top bunk is made and there are a few personal items strewn about. Steve puts his pile on the bottom bunk and starts to unfold his bedding. He resists the urge to dig through Barnes' things to learn more about him.
None of that really matters, anyway, because the trial is over and Steve is looking at a minimum of two years in minimum security prison. This is his life for the next two years. It puts college on hold and it may stick with him for the rest of his life and he still doesn't think he did a damn thing wrong, but that doesn't make the prospect of being in prison any less daunting. His sentence would have been worse if the judge hadn't had a soft spot for veterans, too. Steve had hated letting his lawyer play that card, but he hadn't had much of a choice.
He's got muscles, at least. As he's going through the intake process, he notices most of the men are smaller than him and a few of them eye him warily. He says nothing to anyone unless he's supposed to, leaving the chatter to a skinny man with a face tattoo and whoever he can manage to pull answers from.
There's a pile of clothes and sheets and toiletries in his arms and as they're led in, the group is split up among the blocks. Steve is in C block, he's told, and his cell mate will be a man named Barnes. It all means nothing to Steve, but he remembers the details, anyway. Everything looks the same in here and he wonders what kind of criminal he'll be sharing a cell with. Enough of the men in here come from unwinnable situations. It's not something Steve would look down his nose at. His neighborhood wasn't exactly a safe suburban haven, either, and he could have easily fallen in with a bad crowd or made the wrong decision and wound up in their shoes. He doesn't let himself forget that. Most of them are minor drug offenders or small time thieves, maybe a few bigger offenders moved here for years of good behavior.
When he finally gets to his cell, the top bunk is made and there are a few personal items strewn about. Steve puts his pile on the bottom bunk and starts to unfold his bedding. He resists the urge to dig through Barnes' things to learn more about him.
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The second guy lasted almost a year. They had a strained relationship that started out rocky until Bucky choked him into unconsciousness, and when he woke Bucky hovered over him long enough to whisper about how the next time it happened he wouldn't stop until there wasn't a heartbeat left. In his defense, Rumlow's prior roommates all met an unfortunate fate after a few months of playing prison bitch until he got bored of them. Rumlow's in max now, and good goddamn riddance.
He's playing poker in a rec room when someone comes up to murmur to him about the sudden presence in his room, and he folds his hand immediately. Surrenders the few cigarettes he'd had left in his betting pool to the pot, because it's just easier to keep the peace than deal with a bunch of pissed off regulars the next time he wants to try and buy in.
He goes out of sheer concern. There's no small fear that if he leaves his shit unguarded and the new guy's a tweaker, something important to him might go missing. He needs to gauge how hard to lock his stuff down, needs to figure out if he's got to set some boundaries from the jump, and it's with the wariness of those first two guys etched into his brow that he surveys his new bunkie.
He watches silently with arms folded across his chest when he arrives, leaning against the open cell doorway and scrutinizing without drawing attention to himself. He takes in the set of this guy's shoulders, his countenance, his demeanor. He's ripped as hell, that could be problematic, but Rumlow had been as well. Didn't stop him then, wouldn't stop him now. There he'll stay, content to let minutes tick past without Steve realizing he's there and with no intention to speak a word until he eventually picks on the feeling of eyes at his back.
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It takes a moment to notice he's being watched. Or maybe it's longer than that. He's almost done when he notices, but he finishes the last corner before he turns around to acknowledge the presence, anyway. It's a subtle show of dominance, he knows, but it's not one he can help. Keeping his head down and being overly deferential isn't going to serve him here and it's not in his nature, anyway. He's not going to kowtow to anyone.
When he finally turns to the other man, he keeps his face neutral. It's not the sort of place where a smile seems appropriate, but he's also not looking to start a fight over nothing. Steve's usually agreeable until he's given a reason not to be and that doesn't have to change here.
"Are you Barnes? I'm Steve Rogers." He approaches Bucky with his hand out for a shake.
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Explains the shoulders. He's not complaining about the view.
Or the one he's greeted with when Rogers turns around; it's pretty bizarre to reconcile pretty down-home features with a body like that, how one can look boyish and deadly at the same time? Impressive. He'll add it to the list of things he thinks about in the shower to pass the time - yeah, that's inappropriate as hell but after two years in prison? Christ, his spank bank is a tragic mile long.
God, he misses sex.
Steve's neutral, which is a first. Zola had been overly friendly to the point of sniveling and Rumlow opted for that antagonistic 'fight the first person you see' kind of aggression. He'll take it as a good sign, he hopes, and he reaches out calmly to shake the hand offered to him.
"Bucky," is his answer, which is neither the James nor the Barnes written on any of his shit anywhere in the room. As soon as their hands fall away, he nods to the bed. "Afghanistan or Iraq?"
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The last thing he wants is to get more time added to his sentence. Of course, that's no guarantee that there aren't other things in the room, but Steve's hoping he's actually lucked out with a roommate who might also want to do his time and leave.
"Afghanistan. You?"
It's an easy assumption to make at that question. He's not sure if it's good or bad that the other man's likely served, too. Steve had found a level of camaraderie in the army that he'd enjoyed, but he'd also met his share of pig-headed bullies there. It's not in Steve's nature to see anything less than the best in anyone, though. He's feeling cautiously optimistic.
Besides any of that, Bucky's really not bad-looking, but he'll keep that to himself in here, even if his eyes go down for a moment, assessing. He's in good shape. Handsome. It's not entirely surprising that he'd served once Steve gets a good look at him.
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Maybe the career he went into after his discharge might be ironic, then, but nobody actually died learning krav maga.
The subject on their shared personal history (in a way) does wonders for breaking the ice, he guesses. They've got a foundation there, and in prison, that's sort of a necessity. People divide themselves up by certain traits - tweakers and junkies, religious nuts, gangs, skinheads, whatever. If that's the thing Steve chooses to define himself by, well, he'll fit in with the handful of guys Barnes surrounds himself with.
It makes for good protection too, not a lot of people are keen to trifle with veterans. Either because they love their country and have a misguided sense of patriotism, or because they're afraid of the thousand yard stare and the fact that they'd be challenging someone who actually killed a man - not just somebody who held up a liquor store or didn't pay the IRS the right amount for a few decades.
They're off to a decent start, so Bucky feels comfortable coming out of the gate bluntly honest, "You don't mess with my shit, I won't mess with yours. Don't start anything with anyone that you can't finish, because I'm not backing you up if you do something stupid. Don't have sex while I'm in here, and for the love of god, don't snore."
Deal?
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"I don't plan to start anything, but if I do anything stupid I promise not to blame you for it." Of course, he also hadn't planned to wind up in prison, so he might be writing a check there that his ass can't catch. There are some things he's not going to lie back and ignore, even in prison. Winding up here had more than proven that.
"And if I snore, you can wake me up. I won't blame you." Not that he thinks he does, but he doesn't exactly record himself sleeping.
And he won't be touching Bucky's things or having sex in their cell, whether Bucky's here or not. From what they'd been told, they're not really supposed to touch in any significant way, let alone have sex. Steve's resigned himself to two years of celibacy, but even if he hadn't, he'd like to think he's smart enough to find a more covert place than his open cell.
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He pushes off the doorway with casual ease, and nods his head toward the hall from which he'd just come.
"Anyone give you the tour yet? I can show you around - best place to shower and who you shouldn't piss off." Particularly the latter, not out of any real place of philanthropy but because he doesn't want any dudes hovering around his cell waiting for a good time to shiv his new bunkie. Screaming's god damn terrible for your beauty rest, and sleep is the one thing Bucky feels like he can still enjoy in here. If he could pass his time in a god damn coma he might just sign up for it.
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"I'd appreciate it, actually."
He turns around to neaten his little pile of belongings on his bed quickly and then he steps away to follow after Bucky. Leaving a mess in their shared space seems like a bad first impression and Steve's hoping for some sense of peace between them.
"The last thing I want to do is piss off the wrong person by accident." At least if it's on purpose, he'll know what he's getting into.
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At least he doesn't seem like a crier. Bucky fucking hates the criers.
He leads the way; his hands slip absently into his standard issue bottoms as he walks, leaving only the thumbs poking out of the fabric. He travels with a little hunch, a little dip at the top of his spine like he's used to a bowed head. Terrible posture, yeah, but you develop bad habits in a place like this.
He's given this tour a few times before, not to his roommates but to pathetic looking kids who seemed lost and twitchy. Sometimes all they need is a calm voice and a sense of familiarity with their surroundings, so typically the first place he starts is the hall by the cafeteria. He leads them past, but doesn't turn down it proper, just gestures vaguely.
"You eat in there, meals are at seven, eleven, and five. They close it off between, so there's no getting in unless you work the kitchens." Which he'd done for a grand total of two months before he realized what a fucking nuthouse it was. Everyone goes scrambling to you for something, and it's a political fucking game. "They ever try and get you to work in there, just know it's basically Westeros."
And he's missed two whole fucking seasons of Game of Thrones too, it's a tragedy. At least the whole thing'll air before he's out and he can binge watch it three years from now. He's getting it on god damn blue ray.
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"Don't work in the kitchens. Got it."
He figures at least the food shouldn't be too bad compared to what he'd eaten in the army. He can handle a few more years of low-grade cafeteria food. It will probably be the easiest part of all of this. Well, that and the fact that for now he's got a roommate who seems halfway sane and who certainly isn't difficult to look at.
"Who's your friend?" It's asked in a hushed voice when Steve catches sight of a guy glaring down the hall at them. He can't be glaring at Steve, because Steve has no clue who he is, but he suspects Bucky might. Then again, maybe that's just that guy's face. Maybe walking around with Bucky is already marking him in some ways, but Bucky's given Steve no reason to doubt him so far.
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He does, however, take his punchable face somewhere else when he realizes he's been found out. Bucky's eyes roll to the ceiling, and he puffs out a put-upon sigh.
"Long story," He mutters, undeniable distaste tinging the words. It does sound like a long story if Steve's only judge is the sheer amount of bitterness one human can pack onto two words. "Guy's been carrying a grudge for practically two goddamn years at this point, but he's not gonna do anything to you unless you provoke him."
At least, Barnes thinks he won't, word spread pretty well after what he did to Rumlow. He doesn't get too many people stepping up to try anything on him, but that won't stop Alex if he gets a group of them to turn on him for some reason. Two or three guys, sure, he can probably handle. Six or more and all the muay thai in the world won't do him any favors. "Do yourself a favor and steer clear. He might not be able to outpunch you, but he's got money on the outside. You got it out there, you got it in here. People'll do anything for the right price so long as it doesn't get them bounced to max."
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Then again, that's what landed him here in the first place. Steve might not have learned his lesson on that one, because it had felt damn good and he doesn't regret a thing. Too many people think they can push everyone around, whether it's with money or muscle. There's nothing Steve hates more than a bully in any form.
"Did you scuff his fancy shoes or something?" That hint of a smile pulls at the corner of his lips again. Maybe it's a long story, but he wouldn't mind hearing it some time. It's not like they won't have plenty of time, especially since they'll be in a cell together for a long time.
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He isn't offended by the probing question, but he doesn't seem so inclined to tell his story just yet to a veritable stranger. It'll undoubtedly come up again, Steve's stuck in his cell for potentially years and Alex sure as shit isn't going anywhere any time soon. Bucky'd just like to have a few miles under his belt before he has to get into the whole shady affair. He gestures toward the library doors, and opts for a swift and unsubtle change of subject.
"Not really a whole lot of anything newer than 2005, think they had some kind of prison literacy revival back then but after they cut funding the only thing they update's the law school stuff." For prisoners vocally and unrelentingly insistent on reading up about their own cases, their rights, the legal precedent surrounding their offenses. Some things never change.
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"No Twilight, then? I'm sure I'll make do." He glances into the library with a private little smile and thinks he might actually spend some time here. It's quiet and reading is probably the best source of entertainment he'll get. "There's plenty of older books that are worth reading, right?"
Maybe he'll luck out and they'll have some books he'll need to read for school when he gets back to it, but even if they don't, reading for pleasure isn't a half bad hobby to pick up if he's going to be here with all this personal time and no access to the internet or television. It seems like there's not much other than reading or social activities like cards. Steve's not averse to socializing a little, but he likes having self-motivated hobbies, too.
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His little quip does earn him his first laugh, though. It's just a breathy little chuckle accompanied by a little shake of the head.
"So long as you're a fan of the classics," he agrees, shuffling them onward again at an amble. Normally he's a brisk tour guide, but Steve's probably the easiest initiate he's ever given this thing to and he finds he's not already eager to push the guy onto someone more empathetic than himself for the post-tour therapy bonding session most newbies seem to want to have with a regular. Hard to find good company in here, so he'll take what few minutes he can get until he and Steve wind up hating each other over something like his last two roommates. "Slaughterhouse Five's usually in stock, turns out people who give a shit about Vonnegut don't typically wind up in jail."
Which is, obviously, a fallacy considering he's in here along with dozens of other reasonably intelligent people with unfortunate judgement or luck or circumstance. If you can't make jokes about the population you're a part of, though, you're in for a long stint.
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"Yeah? You think the rest of them were smart enough to not get caught?" Steve can't help chuckling. Vonnegut's subversive enough that plenty of people who enjoy him break laws. Maybe Steve's just one of the few idiots who got caught.
He never said he was smart.
"Guess that means more reading material for us."
And really, that's not endearing Bucky to him any less. At this point, he might actually be disappointed if Bucky turns out to be a Nazi or something, but he's pretty sure the Nazis in here are a little more obvious.
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Steve's fear of his SS tendencies can be assuaged when Bucky leads him into the rec room, pretty well-populated with card tables and a t.v. at the back end. They actually enter this one, because it's not a landmark like the Library so much as entire social environment that warrants being broken down.
He gestures vaguely to the various groups dispersed about the place, obviously broken up into factions over interests. It's not a maximum or even medium security joint though, so there's no real tension and many people intersperse with one another like you might expect from a half-decent reasonable community.
"Television's got one remote and one person's in charge of it a day on a rotating schedule. When it's your turn and it turns four, don't try and switch off Ellen or Pumba will stab you in your sleep," He gestures to the back of a bald man with more rolls on his neck than any human ought to have. Pumba raises a hand in an OK gesture to acknowledge them but doesn't peel his eyes away from Mrs. Degeneres even for a second. He moves on briskly, "Our group gets the card table on Tuesdays for poker, we play for smokes even though they're contraband, but the guards don't care unless you piss 'em off, so don't piss 'em off. If you don't smoke, well, nobody's asking you to start, but it's a two-stick minimum to play either way."
And then a point over to the corner of the room, where the actual nazis are.
"Those are the skin-heads, and unless you plan on adopting a swastika tattoo above your eyebrow you'd better just leave the crazy bastards alone. They usually keep to themselves." He leans in a couple inches from Steve's ear to conspiratorially mutter, "They're not actually all that devout, they're mostly just rednecks in for meth charges, not actual Klan-type effigy shit. They get real defensive, though, if you call them out on it. One time they tried to fight a black guy in the hall and I think six teeth fell out."
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It's not hard to see the way the groups are broken up in the rec room. It's a tribal sort of thing that he's seen in plenty of more wholesome environments than a prison. Humans are tribal by nature, even if Steve himself strives to judge a man by his actions and not whether or not they have trivial things in common. Most people crave the familiar and in here, finding people who feel familiar is probably what keeps some people feeling sane and normal.
He nods to Pumba, not sure if the man sees the gesture, but if he finds joy in a talk show, Steve's not going to be the one to pull his attention away from it. Everyone deserves a little happiness.
Then he catches up with Bucky's words. Our group. Steve wonders if that means he's welcome that easily. It's a nice thought. He's used to being on his own a lot of the time, but it's not because he's some anti-social loner.
He makes a noncommittal sound at the description of the skin-heads. Even if they're not devout, Steve plans to steer clear and make sure that really is true from afar. Even pretending to be a Neo-Nazi isn't something Steve thinks too highly of, even if he knows that he's got the look like he'd be welcomed in with open arms. He's got no love for them.
"What kind of group is your group?"
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"Vets, mostly," He adds, and then nods to each of them in turn as he speaks. "Sam Wilson, air force. Rhodey was marines. Nobody's really sure what Barton was, he says if he told us he'd have to kill us. And then Lang, who... well, he's just an asshole, I think he worked at Baskin Robbins or something."
"I have a masters in Electrical Engineering!" Lang calls back defensively, like it's the hundredth time he's had to say it. Bucky just shakes his head and loudly responds, "Really helped him keep those freezers in pristine working condition."
They're spared Scott's commentary by Rhodey sagely pointing out Zaxby's doesn't count as a real word, and Scott launches into pleading his case why it does. There's some good-natured debating that takes over the group, with Barton agreeing it is and Wilson accusing him of siding with Lang because he tried to pull that same shit last time with Arby's.
Barnes can only shake his head, and then gesture toward the exit. Few more places left on the tour, and there's no chance Steve wants to pick sides already in their shithead debate.
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"Steve Rogers, army." He introduces himself, gets a few nods and a friendly handshake from Rhodey, who seems to be the most senior of the group.
"Good luck." He sends a quick wink to Scott as he follows Bucky back out.
Once they're in the hall again, he falls into step next to Bucky again, this time with a little smile in place. "Well, they seem like my kind of idiots."
Maybe the smile isn't quite appropriate and when the thought catches up to him, he schools his face again, but it's not really quick enough to hide the fact that he'd been smiling a little.
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Asking what someone did wrong with their life is a can of worms at best and a lifetime enemy from the jump at worst, so he pockets the urge and guides them past the commissary. "You can stock up on junk food and hygiene supplies there. Think the max amount you can have on your account is like three hundred bucks or something, but if you keep a steady job and don't blow through the Cup Noodles you'll be fine."
They pass a set of chained and guarded double doors, which Bucky doesn't go into detail on, just vaguely says, yard. They can't head out there now anyway, too late in the day and it's raining outside. And the last stop is the bathrooms, rows of urinals and toilets across from showers partitioned by tear-away curtains.
He points to one on the far left, "That's got the best water pressure. Two doors down the cold doesn't work so if you like scalding water, you're in for a treat. Annnnd-"
A point at the one on the furthest right. "That one's got a glory hole, so unless you're aiming to suck or be sucked, best steer clear."
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His eyes skim over the commissary as they pass, thinking of what he might actually buy there once he's got the funds. Between his appetite and personal grooming needs, he really will need to make sure he finds a job that pays enough. He can't expect any money from anyone outside.
Passing the door to the yard gives him pause and he takes a moment to look out the little window. Maybe more than the bars, the fact that he knows he can't be outside without permission is what really drives the point home that he's trapped here. This is real. He's really in prison.
The last steps to the bathroom feel more somber, but he follows Bucky into it, a little too distracted by his thoughts to really commit which shower is best to memory until--
"Doesn't the limited number of guys in here take some of the mystery out of a glory hole?"
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With a little shake of his head, he's got to admit, "Not a whole lot of fish in the pond, though."
Fish that'd be happy to take a nibble at some bait now that Steve's broad shoulders wandered in, maybe, but that still doesn't make it worth the risk for him. He'll just... kindly lead them out of the bathroom and back toward the cell blocks.
"That's basically it. Aside from Alex and the Skinheads, everyone else'll more or less leave you alone if you do the same. It's pretty quiet until it isn't." And then they're ambling back toward their designated room, and he curls his fingers around the bars at their entranceway. "Questions?"
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In fact, the army seems to have prepared him for a lot of aspects of life in prison. No wonder Bucky and his friends seem like they're staying relatively sane. The food's no worse, the accommodations might actually be a little better in some ways and he's guessing almost all of them have had to entertain themselves alone in the god damned desert at some point. At least the prison is air conditioned and no one is trying to make them kill anyone or step on a land mine.
"Yeah. Did I miss lunch?" This time when he smiles a little, he doesn't try so hard to hide it. Maybe this won't be so bad. Two years here can't be any worse than two in Afghanistan and the company seems alright. He can make the best of this.
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Too attractive, and friendly, and possibly smart although Barnes hasn't had any real confirmation for that. Too good to be true, the roommate lottery, so he points accusingly.
"Alright, what's the catch? What's your deal? I'm not gonna walk in one day to find you licking my shoes or something, right?"
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